Exactly one year ago from now, my girlfriend and I had been together for three months and things were going great. I know for some of you it might not seem like long, but I saw her every day and we spent a ton of available time together. In all that time I loved her madly with my whole heart, I swear I did. She said she loves me too and I believed her. It was her first relation and mine was second. If you don’t believe me, what we were experiencing was love, let’s call it a very strong attraction.
She was in a dance group; there she met her salsa partner, who was her senior. She started feeling for him too (maybe I was wrong) but as you know salsa is less of a dance, but more of a communion of two souls in body as well as in spirit. She told me that guy proposed to her but she rejected because she didn’t want to hurt me or cheat on me. Now she was back to me and loves me and doesn’t plan to dump me to go for the other guy. It took a lot of courage for her to tell me about this and I really appreciate that, she could have very well kept it a secret, but she chose to tell me, which I think is very good. I definitely didn't want to lose her either. I felt if I broke up with her over this not only will it break my own heart, it will break hers too.
The problem was she talked to him every single day, talked to with him on phone; they met during the break time and after college. She was giving him more time than me. She sometimes lied to me that she was busy, but at that time she was with him. I felt uncomfortable with everything that concerned him. I asked her who she would choose out of the two, she said she would choose me, obviously.
So I don’t know what to do about this. I don’t want things to change between me and her. I really hate having to think about her having feelings for another guy. Then one day, I told her, if she wants to keep me, she has to put an end to all contact with that guy. She told me that she did as i asked, yet I caught her twice talking to him comfortably in food court. She claims to have used those times to explain the situation to him but I'm having a hard time believing that. She also claims to have gotten over him already, but everything appears to be false. She got irritated, and she said she needs space to concentrate on other things in her life and I understand that. She said she will always love me and will always be there for me, but she doesn’t want to be my girlfriend anymore, maybe being friends would be a better option she said. I don’t want to go from being her boyfriend to being just friends because I love this girl and I want to be with her through good and bad times, I think we can work through this together even though she said that she truly doesn't know what she wants to do.
“I just think we should be just friends for a while” she said. That sentence I heard crushed me. I felt as if the entire world was coming crashing down on my shoulders.
Finally, we broke up; I want her to decide what she wants in her life. The result comes out to be that she didn’t care much about what I was thinking. She wants to be friends with me. But I don’t think I’ll ever feel comfortable with her even being just friends.
Now months passed, we didn’t exchange even a single word. I did everything in my power to get rid of the pain. It took months for the pain to vanish but still I’m not out of it.
One day, my friend came up to me and told me that he liked one of my old friends, and he asked her that do you like anyone or ever been in relationship before. She said no I didn’t find my Mr Right till now, never been in relationship. He said he is going to propose to her soon. I asked my old friend, who? The answer was so unexpected that I didn’t discover any word to say and didn't know to react. I was completely crushed. I kept silent and moved on. Life sucks a lot of the time, huh? But, yeah know, if you can get through heartbreak, you can get through almost anything.
I was broken hearted, empty, and felt no happiness. THEN ANOTHER AMAZING GIRL CAME IN MY LIFE (Ha Ha! Yippee!). After few days, I finally feel a sense of relief, like I’m getting happy again. I never met someone who made me so happy. I just love holding her hands; she is really beautiful/pretty. We are not in relationship but we like each other. We hang out together, but we don’t go on “dates”. We meet daily, talk everyday on phone, texting every second. We fight and make up. I would thank you from the bottom of my heart, but for you my heart has no bottom. Thank you for never leaving my side through the tough and ugly times. Thank you for accepting me for who I was, and looking in the inside, not outside.
In short, life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you’re sad, love what you've got and remember what you had. Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, let go of what you can’t change, love deeply, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything and have no regrets. People change and things go wrong but always remember that life goes on.
